"I'm not trying to forget you
I just like to be alone
Come and give me the space I need
And may you may find that we're all right"
'Bros' by Panda Bear
Lately, and by that I mean the past six months, I've been really getting into this completely new world of music. I've been following my intuition for what to listen to, and I'm so glad that I have an internet connection, to help guide my intuition. I've always made the effort to be my own thing, my own dreamer, and be proud of it too. It's come at certain costs, but those that are close, the ones that really care, and have love for me, intuitively understand. As an Aquarius, I have the distinguished pleasure of contradicting myself, making sense, and forgetting anything ever happened in the first place, on a day to day basis.
At the end of this month, I'm moving into an apartment, and I'll finally have my own room. My own place to be proud of, and call home. These next couple days I feel will be challenging, and I'm going to need every weapon in my arsenal, to fend off naysayers, and those will with ill intentions.
Everyone these days seems to have a story. Do you think it's by accident? Do you think that it's coincidence that the pace of everyone's life is picking up? One of the safest things you can do these days is to let your intuition guide you. If you make it your goal to be, or do something higher than yourself, the rest falls into place.
Last summer, I let my intuition guide me, and I was guided to some rather unconventional paths. Paths I never would of reached on my own. Choices I made, that still affect me to this day, in some way or another. A single band, A single album, that's all it took to forever change the way I approach life.
'Congratulations' by MGMT
Intuitively it feels good to explore these new things. There were complete days that would go by, and the only thing that I listened to on repeat, was that album. I let it consume me, and consume me it did. Quickly, I found myself obsessed with the imagery in my head that Congratulations would illicit. It's beautiful, but I was like a half-carnate Freemason, having only knowledge, but not the wisdom to apply it creatively. It got out of hand, and that's what I'm trying to avoid this summer.
I'm experimenting with this new collection of music called chillwave. It's difficult to explain chillwave without simply dropping my cans on your ears, and giving you a listen, but basically Panda Bear is the most prolific of them all, however, I've been listening to other chillwave music too.
There's a certain excitement in watching the process, whatever it is, unfold before my eyes. Molding it at times, and letting her be on other days. Like it's ironic, how I really completely believed that I was at the top of my game, at the pinnacle of my life, this time, one year ago. A year has come and go, and really I'm not the same person I was then, but I can still relate to others going through their own metamorphosis. Makes me wonder where I'll be next year, 2012... physically, emotionally, will I be the same? Something conspires within me to say, no ;)
Many apologies for not keeping good with my word, and updating my blog, the day-to-day grind usually renders me forgetful like that. So please, don't hold your breath till my next blog post, my luck tells me I'll be happy...
