Pizza Dreams

Tonight will be an interesting night, I have plans to consciously be apart of my dreams. I've actually already been kinda doing it, I wanna say these past two or three nights, but tonight is different, in that I'll be paying attention. More player, than participant.

I've tried this before, and there are some drawbacks. For starters, no notetaking. I mean there is, but my memory isn't that great. Like I remember feelings, more than anything. It's very seldom that I remember events, unless they are very strong.

I used to have to worry about being interrupted, but not tonight. Peeps know better to not mess with me, these days. This was a problem, because they'd wake me, and I'd get scared, or even worse, I'd be afraid of being woken, that I'd rush whatever it was that I was doing, and not really enjoy it as much as I should have.

Then another problem I guess is that at times, I'd have "horny dreams". But I have enough self control to resist the allure that they do offer. Plus I've had like a million of'm, I'm sooooo over'm :)

I want to keep a dream journal, but not here. I have posted my dreams on more than one occasion here, but I dunno. They may be too revealing, for even myself.

There are parts of me, I still have to discover. Parts of me, I'll never admit to. If I'm going to take something to the grave, I at least would like to know what it is. Maybe I'll never find out (in this life at least). I wonder what I have to offer myself. Do I even have anything to offer?

I have much dreaming to do.

goodnight, and good luck out there.

with love, luis miguel rivera.