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Man, life's been so fast as of late, I'm just glad that I've found enough time to just sit down, and take a breather.
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Ok, so I'm not under any kind of influence or anything, but I've been having lots of thoughts, so I'm just going to close my eyes, and start typing whatever comes to my head, and see where it goes.
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So I really like my new job. It's pretty neat, I get to drive all the new Toyota's and stuff that need maintenance. I called my father, and he old me "Son, that's the effectiveness of prayer, trust God, his ways are higher", and in a way he was right. Before I applied for the job, I asked him to pray for it. Pray taht I get it, and sure enough I did. I guess that goes to show you taht if you really want something, the universe will align itself for you to make it happen.
An example would be this past Friday, I of just went from none thing to another. Nothing at all was rushed. I had all the time i needed in the world. You know, I used to think that you needed to play with your fate a bit. Be risky. Be dangerous. To really enjoy the heck out of life, but there is just something so, perfect really, is all I can think, of just living in the moment. Even the very slow ones. Especially the slow ones. Lost in a moment. An insignificant moment, endlessly momentous. I also get that feeling when I'm by myself listening to the "Trans-Europe Express" album by Kraftwerk.
I can't seem to recall how I found out about Kraftwerk. For that matter, much of the music that I listen to comes to me by some fated channel. I'll have a sputter of inspiration, and go looking for something. I don't always really know for what, but I know when I find it.
It seems the universe has a way of satisfying my peculiar fondness for odd things. I've been asked, "Luis this is brilliant, How do you find this stuff?" (Ok that first part I made up) but to be quite honest, it finds me.
I really wish I had started blogging a long time ago. I had a rich history that I wish I could of chronicled in some seemingly concrete way. My memories will have to do. (By the way I read an article online somewhere theorizing about the possibility of digitalized thoughts, weird stuff. But that's irrelevant to where I'm going with this.)
Even if it's not South America, I see myself traveling again to a faraway land. Many perhaps. It almost feels like a natural instinct, something is urging, calling for me. I'm just waiting for timing to be just right. I'll feel it. I'll know it, when it comes.
There are lots of places I want to go. China, Puerto Rico, I want to ride a train all through Europe, Japan, Australia, like I'm just thinking of all the different people I'm going to be meeting.
I want to meet the guy from the Dance Floor Dale video. He looks like a modern gentleman.
I remember I titled this blog post the way I did, because I was thinking about past lives, and like what my hobbies would of been. Like I wonder what I inherited, and what I tossed away. Did I even have a past life? Am I a new soul? Or an old one? There are times I feel like an old soul. And it comes out every once in a while, when I give advice. But I could have easily just inherited that from my dad.
It's weird. Growing up, I was a child of two very different parents. My dad, who was kind of the protector figure, and the stable one. And then on the other end, was my mom. A child at heart, free as a bird, quick to adapt. I think that's why they had to be together. They had lessons to learn from each other. I'm so glad that they are both still alive, and in my life in some way or another. From my dad I learn about stability, and the importance of simply having a roof over my head. And then from mom, I learned how to love. How to have fun, be adventurous.
I wonder if I'm all together sometimes, but I realize that some of the pieces have changed places, some aren't even there anymore. It's like weather in Florida, she can be nice, but she can also be a real biotch.
trap it, don't flap it
goodnight :)
love luis
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