A Prequel to Fatherhood

I've had one of the busiest weekends in forever. I feel like I'm finally aligning with the cosmos. After I've been talking with Holly for days now, we finally got to go out on a couple dates last Friday. I got to spend some quality time on Bradenton Beach, and Marina Jack. I enjoyed the slow parts. Getting lost. All of it really. I also am in the finishing stages of applying at a Toyota dealership. I'd be a porter, if everything works out well. I'd tag cars for service when they come in, and move cars around the lot. So I'm excited for that. Tomorrow, I'll take a drug test, and they've been running a background check on me over the weekend, so it'll be all good when they hire me :)



For the remainder of the weekend, I took care of Kali Elizabeth Diamond's little brother Sebastian. Taking care of him, gave me a very rare glimpse into what it would be like to be a father. Even though I think of him more as MY own little brother, I never got to have, the thought crossed my mind, that ideally when the time comes for me to have a son, I wouldn't mind if he turned out like Sebastian. In fact, he reminds me of my younger self in many ways. I was not tame (still aint) at all. Sebastian is the explorer type, very very curious. We spent the Saturday on the beach, flying a kite. Just there was something so simple about it. Not to mention the several times he fell asleep on me.

I'm feeling more and more like a MAN.

goodnight :)