I actually meant to post this a couple days ago, but circumstances got the best, and would not allow. These past couple of days have mostly been a blur, and the only evidence that any of it really happened, is my aching body.
Tuesday morning, I wake to realize that I missed my ride to Bradenton via my sisters. I was going to catch up with Sajan, because he was in town. So I proceed to "check my sites", like I do most mornings, and I get a link to this video. After watching it, I was motivated to not let fate get the best of me. I was going to meet up with Sajan one way or another. I eat a good breakfast, and make my way out. I end up running 7 miles (early I thought it was 6.5, but I just checked), barefoot, in the rain, no shirt. After a while, you don't even remember that you're running. Seriously, thank you Survivor, for making the most amazing song ever. I kept playing Eye of the Tiger in my head, to keep my spirits up.
The next day, Sajan and I run on the beach, like the good ol' days. There is just a certain calamity, and perfectness about walking back, and just hearing the water play tug-a-war with the shore. The birds, doing their thing. I belong to the beach.
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For these past couple days I've been at the mercy of people's generosity, and have restored my faith in humanity. People are really nice, especially when you need them to be. Wednesday Devin ran out of gas, and so we made some phone calls, and Aileen Clever came to rescue us! Not only that, she treated me to noodles and nuggets later on that night, so I am very grateful for that. She has a blog, you can check her out at AILEEN'S WARPED MUSINGS.
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This was the other post that I meant to finish, and put up the other day, but whatevs. It's here below
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So I've been following these two girls on the internet. By some chance, I found Nina Jankovic on Vimeo, and she later forwarded me to her Youtube page. She used to have some poetry that I really enjoyed on Vimeo. Anyways, a couple weeks later I hear that she is starting a new channel with Sofia, called "Existential Stangers", the idea being they've never met in person before, but the both of them would share a thought provoking page on Youtube none-the-less. Well anyways, I've been watching all their videos, and following them on their blog, and I want to share with you their most recent post, because I found it rather intriguing, because it deals with depression, something that is relevant to mineself, and many people I know. Without further ado:
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Sapolsky on Depression
I've been watching a few lectures, and i found this one particularly interesting not only because i had a special lecture at university on depression but also because i feel somewhat intrigued about the complexity of this condition. It has been associated with a chemical imbalance in the brain, mainly of neurotransmitters such as seratonin and dopamine (which are main inducers of feelings of well-being and emotional stability). The lack of these neurotransmitters in particular areas of the brain has decreased the amount of synapses which decreases the activity of the 'happy condition'. So, pharmaceutical companies have come up with the so called anti-depressants (ex: Prozac) to try to preserve as many neurotransmitters as possible, in the synpatic cleft, to increase the firing rate of the synapses. The problemo here is that it ...[Continue Reading]
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My current situation, I am sleeping in a house I'm not welcome to. My sister has made it her sole mission in life to treat me horribly, and leave me in the streets. I only wish her the sincerest love from my heart...
As for my job situation, I'm looking outside, and it's raining, I think it's time for a run :) I need inspiration.
HOPE LOVE HOPE LOVE HOPE
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Certainty doesn't mean we get what we want. It means we get what we need in order to further our transformation. It means knowing our reaction is what is important and not the results. It means accepting responsibility by seeing that the rotten stuff comes from having planted a negative seed at some time in our past.
In what ways do you blame others for what happens to you? When will you accept responsibility?
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