These past, I'd say 48 hours have truly been revolutionary, and dare I say evolutionary. I find it amazing that with all the technology available, with all the means of communication these days, the high tech choice of the day is...
texting! (yay)
For those of you who don't know (which is pretty much everyone reading this blog), Daniella Hernandez was my first love. Last night, I lifted a burden that has been chipping away at my heart for over two years now. I'm not going to go into the deets, because I know she is going to read this, and wouldn't want me to do so, but I can honestly say, that I feel like loving again. Truly, dearly, wholeheartedly loving again.
It's been a war with my heart, and my head. I'm not sure to the level or degree that Nick Montes, from ( nickmontes.com ) , that the heartbreak with his first love went, but if it's anywhere near anything I felt, I can relate him. Finally.
I used to tell him that there are 'plenty of fish in the sea' (and there are), but I just realized how insensitive that is. The very last thing that one wants to hear after a heartbreak is that they should start dating other people. The immediate thing you want to do is fix things. Fix things so that MAYBE you can stay with your dream lover.
I tried fixing things, but the deeper I went, the more roadblocks I came to. You find out things that weren't there before, but were really there the whole time, just you didn't notice them. You find all sorts of contradictions. It was a mess. I find that the truth, no matter how unwanted or undesired, has a way of liberating people.
I titled this post "Friends: Of Kiss, and Bliss", because last night, I went to downtown Bradenton (a city in Florida that should definitely be on the map), and had the time of my life with my friends. Not just Michael, "The Group" as I call it.
There was shirts-off basketball on a rooftop, there was kissing underneath the mistletoe, there was food, a near-death experience (Nick Montes), and what I realized that night was, that was what I was craving for. The experience of being among friends. When I was in California for those six months, rarely did I ever hang out side of the house with my roommates. And when I did, it was a big deal. I put it all over Facebook (like anyone cared). But yeah, I just miss waking up, and having a random ass day, Literally.
And we are poor, so it forces us to be creative.
Speaking of friends, I just got of the phone with my best friend of many years. Sajan Melcher. I let him know what's going on in my life, and it was cool. He supported me. I would go on a rant, and speak for hours on end about our friendship, but that's another post for another day.
Today I will talk my readers. Which aren't many, by the way. According to some stats, I get on average about 12 unique visitors, and 5 of them returning. I am putting out a challenge. Come up with a question for me to answer, or a topic to cover, and I will include it in my next post. It can be on anything, literally. Leave an anonymous/non-anonymous comment, or email me at
luismiguelrivera@inbox.com
I am doing this, because I feel uninspired right now, and don't want to write when I am uninspired.
Goodluck out there, you.
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Just as it is important to believe in God, it's equally important to believe in yourself.
Today, own your greatness.
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I wish that we could have hung out more often during your time here in CA. There were many places that I would have loved to show you ... but I will be the first one to take responsibility and say that getting caught up in the day-to-day routine of life tends to get the best of me. I don't know how to explain it other than being passionate about the present moment - I don't always deviate from what I'm focused on in front of me.
ReplyDeleteNevertheless it was insipring to know you for that (relatively) short period of time, and I stand by what I told you at my B.D. this past September that you had to be in CA at that exact time and place for a reason.
I do hope you will continue to use your talent with words to provide inspiration to others. About how being "poor" relates to creativity - you brought up a very interesting point in the sense that those who feel like they don't have much to lose could be in a state of fearlessness and detachment ... which could open them up to creative inspiration from the heart because ego is under control. That's why so many wealthy people remain fearful and miserable. However ... in this new age of evolution for our species, it has become possible to embrace both worlds of spiritual and material abundance. In fact, the true meaning of abundance could have nothing to do with money at all. As Bashar states, it means "The ability to do what you need to do when you need to do it" ... In other words FREEDOM. And as I'm sure you already know, true freedom is an inner state first and foremost, and it can be experienced in many ways other than money.
Please keep up with your writing. You can add me to your "returning" readers list (is that 6 people now ;) ?)...
~ Nick in CA