My Friend, Patience

Sometimes I wonder where my life would be at times, had I made some choices. It's really the do-ers in life that get anywhere. If I live from my heart, and make choices, they will of course guide me to, hopefully, my highest good. But that's it. Living from my heart. It seems rather destructive. Like if I really had my way, there'd be a great leap in creativity in the world. The way that society is structured, especially these days, those with the greatest heads coming out of college, instead living a passionate life, with creativity, and what-not, they use their energy, and get into the world of finance. Actively being a force of destruction. It's a shame that people at large have bought into the illusion of becoming the %1, of joining the ranks of some of the most "powerful" people today. If it were up to me, I'd base the economy on the principle of abundance. With the utilization of today's technology there is more than enough resources to house, feed, educate, and care for all the people of the world. The only thing that seems to be in the way is a mystical force called money. And if it's in the hands of the few, how will you ever convince them to let it go? If it were up to me, the system would fail. The system would fail, and the common people would come to realize the absurdity of it all. And start something new. Build a society that was based trust, peace, and love. Build a society where the needs of man can be manifested instantaneously, with zero to little effort.

For me, the only thing I can honestly say that I care about is film. I love movies. I love being in that studio environment. I love telling a good story. I love every aspect of being apart of the film-making process. And one of my final goals in life, is to open up a school/studio environment, where people can go and get an education in the field absolutely free of charge. "Rivera Independent, Institute.", I already have a name for it and everything. But first I need an education myself, and I'd say the only thing. The absolute only thing that is stopping me, is money. My family is poor, and obviously cannot afford to send me to the college I want to go to (or any college for that matter). So now I am in a tight spot. I have to be CREATIVE. I have to figure out what it is that I can do, to manifest these desires. I went to California, hoping I'd get a break over there, but eventually found myself in a situation that wasn't fulfilling enough for me to want to stay.

I need to start living from my heart some more. I can't go on knowing that I am half-assing it. That I could have done better. I could have what I want right now, and it's all a matter of making choices.

I have always been one to accept my fate, and kind of go with the natural flow of things. But I am an Aquarius for god-sake. I am the one who rebels. I am the one who carves my own path. And if I am to go to back to school, I'll have to rebel. I can't accept a fate, where I am not happy. I just can't.

Toast to happiness.
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Just as it is important to believe in God, it's equally important to believe in yourself.

Today, own your greatness.

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