Shades: Shifting Perspectives

Today I bought some new shades. My old ones were done with at the party last Friday. And it dawned upon me, that for every pair of shades that I owned, it was a different part of my life. My first ones, I owned since the summer leading into my Senior year, up until right before I left for California. If I had to categorize that part of my life after a figurative (maybe literal) rebirth, I would consider that, Infancy/Toddler years.

I was extremely curious about all thing in life at this point, and that was also the year that I began to think spiritually about things. I had a brand new outlook on the world, and my life was truly starting. It was also the year that I began taking control of my life, and stop letting my ego get in the way of things. Something I am still working on by the way.

My second pair of shades, was fairly recent. I got my second pair of shades in California. I bought them symbolically, with the intention that I was turning a new chapter in my life, the "tween years". This is a point in my life where, everything, even day to day life, seemed uncertain. There were considerable losses. I had to deal with the death of both a family member (my brother) and a friend (Dejuan), from far away. I experienced all the typical things that you would in those tricky tween years.

With my very recent feelings toward what love is, and what it may or may not mean to me, I am entering a new phase of my life, I'll call, Adolescence. Hence my new shades.

Love, I don't know. I'll get back to you on that one. What is love? Maybe I shouldn't be so fool-hearty with my feelings and emotions. But then again, why hold back? Why go against the natural flow? Some people believe in it, and some don't. I fall in that first group. Don't know WHY. Maybe there isn't a WHY. I just do.

I have a feeling that this upcoming week, something will happen, or perhaps a combination of events will culminate, that could profoundly affect my future. I'm not talking about love, at least I don't think so. But I just feel it. I don't know what it is, but am keeping an open heart and mind for it.

In my last post, I asked for your questions, and I got one. The question was by Kali "Xenia" Elizabeth Diamond, and she asks:


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To be honest, I can't be naive enough to say that I am better than anyone, including Joe Blow. We are all spiritual beings having a physical experience, and to say that I am good or bad, is a matter of perspective. I can't say any ONE thing is genuinely good about me, I'm a hobgosh configuration of past experiences, and whatnot. Sure there are things I like about myself. For starters, I don't consider myself the conventional type. I do things the way that I want to, and to do anything less, means death (figuratively of course). I am much more accepting than the typical person probably. A lot of times when we try to convince someone we're right, it's often not because we care about the person, but rather we need their affirmation to feel good about our own beliefs. It is a no-win situation because we're a slave to other peoples reactions and our contentiousness pushes people away. I try not to push people away, but can't always keep that promise. I am not sure I am answering the question fully, but I tried.

The challenge is still out there. I can't promise that I am going to have something inspirational, or important to talk about everyday, and I'm going to need some juice. So if there is a topic, or subject you want me to touch on, I'll keep a list, and cover them when I am feel the timing is right.

Don't a ghost, post.

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Just as it is important to believe in God, it's equally important to believe in yourself.

Today, own your greatness.

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